I found a new place to write my blog, it's much better than blogger and it's very similar to live journal so from now on (until I'll get bored of it and move here again) my blog will be Here.
Write me a comment there, tell me which blog u like better...

I really don't get Live Journal. I wanted to move my blog there because I'm getting tired of blogger and although it's free, they're asking me for a code that I can get only from someone who writes there. What's the point of it?

I honestly need to find myself a life.
I'm so damn bored! Walking around the house all day long and checking my mails 100000000000 times per day (which reminds me I need to write back to some people, I pretend to have a life and not reply immediately).
I got an email from Bee yesterday , I haven't heard from her for quite a long time so she wrote me this really funny email, definitely worth reading (don't bother if you don't understand bits of it, obviously, it's an email.)

Hey dude...
So, I guess you have decided to remain silent and unexistent... For all I know you could have die and I wouldt even know... How dare you do this to such a special and unique friend like myself? (I hope you still understand my humour...).
Anyway, I was told you got back on the 14 of Sept... I left on the 11th (yes, I took a plane and didn'd die!!!) so I didn'd get to see you... Hope you had nice hollidays, wherever you went...And I hope you finally have an ides of your future now... (I f you don't well... "Your're so cool I wanna be just like you when I grow up!!!"). Are you taking some exams again? I am quite happy with my 29, taking in consideration that David got 28 and Chris 30... I got my "well disurved" 4 in Bio but I really don't want to talk about that... (Say CenTiMogAN three times out loud and think of Me!!!).
Right now I am taking a break out of my "not so bussy" schedule of 12 hours a week (no school on Thrusdays) to write to you. I am in Edinburgh, Scotland and quite happy... the rain and the grey have not started yet so I am not yet DePReSsED.... The Uni is quite cool, I am staying in the halls of residence with a bunch of chicks who really enjoy pretending to be drunk so they can totaly throw themselves on to guys... Which, I must say, I find quite pathetic... specially when they do this after jst one beer. I have been quite ntisocial but that is because I really don't identify with these people.... just staying in my room, with my music and my wine (which is really NOT CHEAP over here).
Anyway, outside school, I already met a couple of cool people... played Djambe with a bunch of people from Guana (Africa), met a crew who does FireDancing stuff on monday (maybe go there today, in the evening)... So, I guess, things are starting to fall into place...
I really wanna know what is up on your life... staying in Paris? going to Australia... or Spain... or here (feel free to come squatt my place!!!)? Studying?... vegging out in front of TV?...
Tell me details... please keep in touch...I tend to get quite bored sometimes... need some entertainment!!!
Big Kiss
From McBee........... ( I am thinking of changing to McBee for obvious reasons... wha do you think?!)

Who can say if your love goes as your heart chose...

I feel so pathetic.. I'm like the queen of falling in love with guys I can't have...
I always find myself thinking about a guy who I will never be with and then I put all those sad romantic songs and cry.
I was so happy when I saw his email in my mailbox.. I would have give anything to be with him right now.

Ok enough with this guy! From this post on, I won't write about him anymore. That's enough. I sound like a stupid 12 years old girl and I hate it.
Have I already said I feel pathetic?
I don't only feel it. I am.

My back is killing me!
I think it still hurts from the time I got hit by the shelf at Roi's place two weeks ago. I hope it will pass soon...
I went to register to the French course I want to take at the Sorbonne but when I got there the place was huge and I couldn't find anything so I went back home, I'll go on Monday with my mum, it's too scary to go all by myslef there! (I know I'm childish... what can I do, I felt as if I arrived from a small vilage to the big city.. it's mad!).
I'm going tomorrow to Park Asterix (it's something like Eurodisney, but with Asterix), I've never been there so I hope it'll be cool, have to go to sleep though..

I'm really tired but it's been almost a week since I last posted so here is a little update.
I still didn't find a normal job, actually I was too lazy to give my CV so I only babysit now, yesterday I got 35 Euros for 4 hours and tomorrow I'm going there again, I think I'll keep babysit two or three times a week, it will give me an extra 100 Euros per week which is a lot (considering the fact that I won't spend it all every week), plus it's a cool job, I get money to watch T.V. so why not?
I also talked to Roi. I had to call him since I was really pissed that once again he was online and I wasn't near the computer! Everytime he's online I'm not there so as soon as I saw his message I called him and it was great talking to him again! He's so sweet, I really miss him... I hope I'll see him soon, I want to go to London, maybe with Tiphanie, and that way I'll be able to spend some time with him before he leaves to Australia (I so wanted to go with him!).
And for the very good new! Gilad is coming to Paris in exactly one week!!! I can't wait!
Two days ago I was talking to his boyfriend on MSN and Gilad called him and told him he's coming to Paris and he asked me if he can sleep at my place, I didn't even asked anyone if it's ok that he's coming but today my mom asked me where he's staying so I told her I don't know yet and she said that if he wants he can sleep here. It was such a relief since I was sure she'll get pissed if I'll ask her.
I'm so happy that he's coming here, for 3 days, to celebrate his birthday with ME! I love him so much! He's like my big brother (not that I have one... but I always wanted one!). And few days after Hila is coming and then we might go together to London, Amsterdam or Barcelona, we don't know yet. I hope I'll have enough money. So far I've got 500 Euros I got from my summer job and I'll probably have another 100 I'll get from babysitting and I really hope I'll find a job by then....
Anyways I should go to sleep now!
Good night!

Friday Five

1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people?
Hummm... most of the time yes, but it depends...

2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why?
I use emails, phone and sure that whenever it's possible I'd rather meeting someone than talking to him on the phone...

3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it?
I have two and I use both of them almost everyday... that's the only way I can talk to my friends in Israel.

4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away?
Most of them live far....

5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"?
Distance definitely show u who are ur real friends... Even though with some of my best friends I talk once in a month or even more, I know that whenever I go back it's as if I never left.

I just read a couple of messages I got from Gilad (the sweetest person ever!!! I also told you about him in the really long post...) it really cheered me up. Did I tell you how amazing this guy is???

Another day had passed... I can't remember who told me this but "everyday is day closer to death". I know it's not so cheerful but lately I can't wait until all the days will pass...
I seriously don't know what's wrong with me... I can't talk to my parents without start crying (that's because they're being really annoying about uni' and finding a job...), I don't feel like seeing anyone and all I want to do is stay in my room and listen to music. I don't eat or sleep anymore. I feel as if this is not my place, that I should be in Israel and not here.
I hate this feeling! I keep telling myself that it will pass and as soon as I find a job and I'll start uni' everything will be better but I know it's not true. I just want to be in Israel with all my friends and with R (the guy I told you about)...
As if things aren't bad enough, my parents want to cut off the internet! I told them that if they'll do it they can forget about talking to me ever again. Not that I care much about the internet, I spent the whole summer without touching a computer, but it's the only way I can talk to my friends and if I won't have at least this I'll die!
Don't get me wrong, I love Paris and I've got lots of friends here but it's just not the same. People keep telling me to stop complaining cuz' I live in Paris and it's much better then Tel Aviv but only people who lived both in Europe and in Tel Aviv know that TA is the best! Paris is totally dead at 2-3 A.M when in Tel Aviv you always have something to do...
Enough with this, I feel totaly pathetic complaining all the time about my life...
I went back to school today, not that I really wanted to but I had to go to take my diploma. I saw David and few other seniors... it was really weird! I never thought I'll be back there ever again...
I also have a new web cam, it's pretty cool but I didn't find anyone wth a cam so I couldn't check if it works ok..